You either have to stop being so fucking perfect or make the next move. I can’t live in the middle loving you as much as I do.
I want someone who would be proud to have me on his arm 24/7 not just in this small ass town. You either love and want me or you don’t!
I’m an open book on the coffee table and you are a safe hidden behind a painting that requires a combination, 2 keys and a retinal scan to enter!
He misses me.
Woo fucking hoo. He said it!!!!!!!!
Do I love him enough to just let this shit go or do I push for the truth? Decisions decisions.
So the anniversary was a success once he knew what was going on. Champagne dessert and really dirty sex. Oh and a card if you can imagine that. I am totally in love with this boy. I can’t imagine life without him. We’ve been going at it like rabbits since he got back from Mexico. Ohhhh and his ex keeps telling me how hot I am. I did have to share him with her for a little bit last night but it was actually ok. She’s not so bad. She came over and hung out for a while. I said sorry but that she was just gonna have to deal with me sitting around in my skirt with my shit hanging out. Considering the fact that she plays for both teams I don’t think she minded.
WHAT THE FUCK???? I know that his friend is in town but really. Would it have taken him more than 2 minutes to come get me instead of fucking leaving me to sit here by myself? I really don’t know where the fuck this shit is headed but I’m about to call it. I’m tired of being the one to kiss him all the time. When we are out he is a very hands on person but at home it’s only when I make the first move. Is he just showing off while we are in public. Does he want people to think things are better than they are? Am I ever going to meet his fucking family? There are more questions than answers. Do I just distance myself and see how he reacts? He is leaving in a week for a trip with his family. Maybe I will use the time to get used to not having him around and then see how he is when he gets back. I am so tired of it all. I want the hearts and flowers bullshit sometimes. Is that too much to ask? I want a boyfriend or significant other that tells me what is in their mind. How they feel about me. Maybe it is time to go back to my own age group. Problem is that the sex is just what I like. Almost every one of my needs is met in the bedroom. He makes me feel alive in so many ways but then makes me feel so unimportant in so many other ways. It is like a 50/50 thing. How much of the bad am I supposed to deal with? I could maybe deal with 80/20 but this is a bit excessive. FML
I need a video camera up close so that I can see what it looks like when he makes me cum
I just can’t get enough of him!